November is not Leaving Happily

So, things were going great, if a little crazy, this month but have been crashing some as it comes to a close.
I got my week's vacation and was able to spend the bulk of it with my hubby, though it barely felt like 2 days compared to the actual 6 that it was. I had kept my word count for my NaNovel up so I should've had more than enough time to catch up over the three days I had off after hubby went home...Except one problem. 2hours after hubby left for his 6hr drive home, I ended up having a friend take me into the ER. Massive stomach pains, vomiting, other sorts of fun stuff....Oh it was a joy. After bloodwork and being hooked up to an IV for nearly 5hrs they told me it must just be something I ate or a stomach virus that was going around and sent me home....I slept on and off for nearly two days. Pains and vomiting subsided with the lovely mixture of pain meds and Gravol they had in me but the digestive system itself is still coming back around so to speak. I haven't eaten much of anything and am not testing the theory to wildly at the moment. Lots of water though....Though I'm still bloated like a bloody balloon bout halfway through the way.
Through all this, I somehow managed to pull myself up last night and wrote like 8,250 words and managed to make my 50k for NaNo a little before midnight last night, so technically a day early! Today I slept in til damn near 1pm and then took the entire afternoon to ever so slowly set up my reptiles new tanks. How I managed to sit through a 2hr car ride there and back to get them Monday morning (barely 7hrs after leaving the hospital) I don't know, but they're up...The room is a mess and I still have a lot to do and still just want to go to bed for the next week (hence why I get to oh-so-happily call in sick tomorrow and possibly Friday grrr), but I'm taking my time so I don't just end up feeling even worse in the end. I just hope there's over time available this weekend so I can make up for some of it since I'm suppose to be saving for an apartment soonish....gah!

November is Nuts!

So, if anyone remembers from last year, I'm doing NaNoWriMo again this month. So, my extra time is spent pumping out as many words as my brain can create for me. I've gotten just a tiny bit over 15k and it's only day four! I'm super happy about this, as 15,000 is the minimum goal for day 9 so this gives me a lot of room for the next couple days to not have as much time to write since I'm hoping to pick up a massive amount of OT at work.

I'm also driving myself crazy, but that's a whole other story for a more private blog. A lot of emotional stress and missing hubby and stupid thoughts and dreams messing with my head...and I'll leave it at that.

Wanted to post something quick as I reached my goal for end of the day and am relaxing for a little while before bed. Hope you all had a wonderful Samhain and have a more enjoyable weekend than I do! lol

Oh, if you're looking to read the very very raw version of the novel, head on over to my tumblr. I post it chapter by chapter as I go and haven't been able to find a layout that reverses the order oldest first for posting. I have some fun gifs up as well as I was procrastinating between word count goals LOL
After Death

Samhain Releasing Negativity Ritual

So, glanced through my new books and googled around online a bit for a friend and have noticed releasing negativity is something quite common to be doing during a Samhain ritual. I think I need that right now. I have been very depressed lately, even called in sick to work twice this week just because I didn't want to be bothered with people or the world in general. I just feel like shutting out the world for a while...I don't really know why though so I really hope I can relax and this ritual, along with focusing on the things I do enjoy in life, will help lift my spirits a little....

Look What Came Home With Me

Well, wandered into the local occult shop once again before doing groceries (badbadbad LOL) and found this adorable little beauty that just simply HAD to come home with me...and for only $15 at least it wasn't budget breaking.

Couldn't resist...Mini cauldron/candle holder with ivy and a rat...Yea, he was coming home with me even if he was $30 LOL I also bought a new book. It was relatively lower priced as well, and fitting for the season - especially since I don't know what I'm doing yet...

A Witch's Halloween by Gerina Dunwich

Don't know much about her but I asked and was told she's a good, bare simple, writer with no complaints LOL Hopefully will give me some ideas for a simple ritual to do!

Check out Dead Frontier!

Figured this was quite appropriate for the tme of year, and it'd also be sweet to have some friends to play with sometimes LOL

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November Will Be BUSY

Well, some of you out there may have already guessed why my November will be busy for me. NaNoWriMo!!

For those of you out of the loop: National Novel Writing Month I have my basics for my story and am working on the details over these last two weeks of October. I am super excited and hope I win this year! Last year I got a little over halfway and became seriously ill and even after getting better I had insane writer's block for the genre I was using and couldn't finish in time. This year I am planning ahead and have a desktop and iTouch wallpapers of the daily word count goals to keep track of. I'm also thinking of getting some fun crafty supplies and making a physical calendar to hang up in my room.

Anyone else in for NaNo this year??

I Feel So.....Lost...

Ugh...Today has been a bad day for thinking. I called in sick because my back has been feeling like a sledge hammer went at it and then someone shoved in several scalding hot rods horizontally....since Wednesday. My own stupidity for carrying home a 30lb bag of Yesterday's News litter I suppose...The only reason I forced myself through Thursday is because I wasn't losing my $30/hr holiday pay. I took 3 Advil 500s, an extra strength Motrin, and two Tylenol 1s during a 12hr period and never found full relief - and never had any reaction, proving my stupidly high tolerance for pain meds I guess - so today when I woke up with the same burning pain, I called in sick. I did manage to kill some pain long enough to bus it over to Walmart to get some good groceries and some extra things I was running low on to pass some time, but am in quite intense pain once again but really cannot afford to take more time off...I had wanted to get in some over time this weekend as it was!

All this aside, I feel like my life is in this massive turmoil, and dwelling on it just seems to make time even more constricting. I want to work on drawings and over due art projects, and then I have writing that needs to be worked on, as well as my comic, and then my Wiccan studies on and offline, personal studies, work, trying to maintain some form of friendships, my animals, things around the house, and then all internal stuff...I want to be pregnant - I know that sounds odd but hubby and I have talked and if it happens we'll be prepared and happy and I'm more than mentally and physically ready (might explain some of the stupid over eating lately too) but then there's so much in between stuff too...Like our plan as of right now is to be saving up to rent a place in Sarnia while he works to get his red seal and then we'll buy a house in Peterborough...I can very well envision us getting stuck in Sarnia though, renting, and never being able to afford the house we want elsewhere and I am done with jumping from place to place...I almost think that's another reason I've been so easily spending all my money...It's stuff I've wanted for years, or things I need for my animals, but I think a lot of it has to do with not wanting to rent there, or live there really...I love it there, but I can see us getting sucked in and stuck there, and I am not letting that happen...I can't...

I dunno though...my mind is so busy and unsettled lately. The meditation classes are helping short term, but definitely does not last long enough....